Tried

Hello everyone this will not be a long post, I have been dealing with a sickness and been trying to get better. I have to say that I am so greatful for my friends who have noticed I have been MIA and wondering if everything is ok. I came down with some type of stomach bug that has caused me to well to not go into any detail very sick and not being able to keep anything down! Being pregnant and all this has been so bad. Because of this I have lost 3lbs in one week which again is not good. I go to the doctor tomorrow to see what is wrong. Also you have to love Oklahoma weather, on saturday night about 9:00 pm it started to rain, and it was so bad it rained for almost eight hours staright the street where we lived was flooded, Stephen was not able to go to work because he couldn't get out of our driveways! Winds were very bad and the power went out and there was not power for what seemed liek forever! LOL Logan and Stephen Slepted through the whole thing! Yes it was crazy. I have slowing been able to eat food, yogart, has been my friend! Also toast with butter! I promise to write more next time. Till then wishing you all great health and well wished! Love you all, Amanda

Somethings got to give

Hello my name is Amanda ODair and I am going insane.... If you need me please leave a message after this scream! Honestly how many of you have felt this way? Well I know that I have and honestly I feel like this right now. I had a lot to do for my church and thought I could take it all on by myself because isn't that what I am to do? Well I had a doctors appointment to check up on everything and things were fine I lost 5.7 lbs just by walking and eatting right. Then I got my blood pressuer checked and guess what all this stress has gotten to me my blood pressuer was 131/90 now its not too high and could of been worse, but the point was somethings got to give! But what??? I know that I can not get rid of my church callling, but I can ask for more help! I know I can't stop being a mom, but I can ask for more help! I know I can't stop being a wife, but I know I can ask for more help! I know I can not stop being me, you know a mom, wife, and friend, but I can ask for more help! I want to have a baby and go full term with this little one. I want to get nine months pregenant and be miserable! I know that in order for that to happen I need to give a little and take a little more help. I have to do some certin things like keep walking everyday! Drinking lots of water maybe some AquaHydrate??? And eatting right! I know that if I give a little and take a little help I will be able to have a healthy baby! I love you all and I thank you all for helping me!

believe

Last night we are a little family watch an old classic Prince of Egypt. As I was watching it, I started thinking to myself do I believe in myself? I mean think of it this way, every day we are always trying to teach our children to believe in themselfs, that no matter what they can do anything they set their minds too, but do we tell ourself that? Well latly I havn't been I have been telling myself that I can do it, but when I lose my way I do not tell myself to believe in myself. At the end of teh movie when Mose has parted teh red sea and they are safe, you have this beautiful song called When you Believe. I totally forgot about this song, and honestly I was singing along the whole time. I remeber a time when I had this song on a mixed CD. I would sing it alot! Now bare with me here, no I am not going to sing the song for you. LOL Now some of you may not know this about me, but I love to sing, and the ones who do know me know that I have been blessed by Heavenly fatherwith a gift of song. So now you can all sing along as I put the lyrics up for you to read!

Many nights we've prayed

With no proof anyone could hear

In our hearts a hopeful song

We barely understood

Now we are not afraid

Although we know there's much to fear

We were moving mountains

Long before we knew we could

There can be miracles

When you believe

Though hope is frail

It's hard to kill

Who knows what miracles

You can achieve

When you believe

Somehow you will

You will when you believe

In this time of fear

When prayer so often proves in vain

Hope seemed like the summer birds

Too swiftly flown away

Yet now I'm standing here

My heart's so full I can't explain

Seeking faith and speaking words

I never thought I'd say

There can be miracles

When you believe

Though hope is frail

It's hard to kill

Who knows what miracles

You can achieve

When you believe

Somehow you will

You will when you believe

They don't always happen when you ask

And it's easy to give in to your fear

But when you're blinded by your pain

Can't see your way safe through the rain

Thought of a still resilient voice

Says love is very near

There can be miracles

When you believe

Though hope is frail

It's hard to kill

Who knows what miracles

You can achieve

When you believe

Somehow you will

Now you will

You will when you believe

You will when you believe

Just believe

Gotta believe

You will when you believe

Now that you have read the lyrics think are you believeing in yourself? If your not why is it? For me when I reread the lyrics it was this part right here that made me think. "We were moving mountains Long before we knew we could." Wow how true is that when you have an idea don't you go for it?  Or do you wait and think maybe it won't work. But think you were moving mountain before you knew you could. Now why would I say that??? For me I look at all my friends who insipre me and I think in my head you know what I can do what there doing I can be someone who inspires ones. So now I will believe in myself more. I am so lucky to be married to the love of my life, to have him support me all the time. To tell me Amanda I love you and I am happy to be your husband. To have a wonderful littel boy who loves his momma. Logan you are so special and make your momma proud everyday. You believe in me and I need to do better and believe in myself more. I am very lucky to be pregnant again. To have the chance to bring a new child into this world.  Trust me I know that there will be many changes that Stephen and I will have to make, but thats ok. I am so greatful for all of you who read my post and comment every week. You have no clue who much you inspire me and make me believe in myself. So I am pleased to tell you all that I have lost a total of five lbs in one month! some may say wow thats all, but think I am pregnant and honestly now trying to lose weight. I am just for once in my life doing thing right eatting right, walking everyday, even when I am tried and do not want to. I can't wait till I can get some Earth footware for I know they will strengen my legs more.  I am excited that we are eatting right as a family. My last pregnancy I lived on taco bell because it was something that I could keep down. I used many excusies to not move and to not eat right. You know what not this time around! I am making an effort to do myself and beleive in myself that I CAN DO IT! Well I will leave you with some new pictures of my family. Take care everyone till next time remeber if you believe in yourself anything cna happen!